18th
I wish i would have made better decisions with the time i had, all the times i had the oppertunity to see you and didn’t. Now it seems like i’m such an idiot because i didn’t take advantage at what was right infront of me, It’s hard for me to stick to things by nature, i never meant to be all wishy washy, and now that i know what i really want its past to late. Thinking about that makes it feel like tiny needles everywhere. I hope this all ends and everything goes back to how it was, that’s pretty much all i could ask for. I wont take it for granted again that’s for sure. I’m a sucker for you as you can already tell, and I’ve dove in to the point of no swimming out. and i love it. you’re the only person who means more to me than myself. And i’m sorry i put you through this myself, i can’t believe i was such a douche.